Prepare for Happiness

Ask for what you want

And be prepared to receive it,

Just as you would prepare for the rain when clouds gather,

Happiness needs you to be prepared,

It prevents you from drowning

rachel

My birthdays have always been a time of reflection. I am always left feeling like I have not done enough. This year however, I can safely say, I am happy! Truly I am, I feel blessed! I am blessed! I am totes in love and I am right where I should be!

There’s that unpreparedness for the happiness though! That anxious voice telling me what if I lose it all today? My default had always been to go back to the familiar,but today I am not. Not because I have any certainty of the future, I don’t. It’s because I know I belong here, I am happy here, I have all I need here! If tomorrow should start and I am not happy, that is ok too! Because the needs of tomorrow are already provided for tomorrow! So today I live and I accept the present!

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Dear Ex Lover

Dear ex lover

You were never a lover, but for this poem you are.

Get up and go!

This body isn’t your church for you to cum and worship,

This body isn’t your chapel to cum and ask for forgiveness and speak in tongues, only to get out and sin again!

You can’t cum with your demons in this house, leave them in the street!

This is a holy place!

It is a temple!

My temple!

God’s temple!

Now,

Get up and go

rachel

30 before 30

On Honesty

I wanted so bad to love you! I didn’t love you, I wanted to love you! I fell in love with the idea of you, it was nothing you did. You just didn’t make my heart skip a beat. I didn’t even see you the day we met because you were just that insignificant.

It’s nothing you did or didn’t do, it’s time for me to be honest with myself. I think you are awesome, that’s true but you just not the one my heart longs for. I still like your smile, I like your sexy legs and I think you are the hottest but just not for me. Be awesome and stay cool, we just shouldn’t have happened that’s all.

Connections should be easy, not forced, just spontaneous. I think we all deserve that and I am letting you go so you find that connection. You deserve it, I deserve it too. Go forth and find your special connection.

rachel

I wrote this a while back but never sent it. I delayed the inevitable and ended up wasting both our times. That was also a lesson. Honesty may be brutal but it’s necessary.

Love is Self

Teach me your ways

Let me love you

I want to graduate in loving you

It will be my full time thesis

Finding new ways to love you as we both evolve

Teach me to love you

I want to know which feathers makes your soul smile

So I can get them and always tickle your soul

I am learning to love myself fiercely

Some days are perfect

Some days like today are ok

And that’s completely well with my soul

rachel

An Ode to My Feet

I have hated you for so long

I remember the day I realized you weren’t conventionally beautiful

Barefoot swimming in the ocean with others,

Your length, shape and color was different

Something to be laughed at

Something to be hidden

Isn’t it funny how much ground we have covered

Isn’t it ironic how you have always been there for me

Even when I hated you, you loved me

Always there for me

You have grown in me

Acceptance became love

So dear feet,

I love you

Imperfect, true.

That’s why I love you,

You are just mine!!

Mine!

rachel