Ask for what you want
And be prepared to receive it,
Just as you would prepare for the rain when clouds gather,
Happiness needs you to be prepared,
It prevents you from drowning
My birthdays have always been a time of reflection. I am always left feeling like I have not done enough. This year however, I can safely say, I am happy! Truly I am, I feel blessed! I am blessed! I am totes in love and I am right where I should be!
There’s that unpreparedness for the happiness though! That anxious voice telling me what if I lose it all today? My default had always been to go back to the familiar,but today I am not. Not because I have any certainty of the future, I don’t. It’s because I know I belong here, I am happy here, I have all I need here! If tomorrow should start and I am not happy, that is ok too! Because the needs of tomorrow are already provided for tomorrow! So today I live and I accept the present!
Dear ex lover
You were never a lover, but for this poem you are.
Get up and go!
This body isn’t your church for you to cum and worship,
This body isn’t your chapel to cum and ask for forgiveness and speak in tongues, only to get out and sin again!
You can’t cum with your demons in this house, leave them in the street!
This is a holy place!
It is a temple!
Get up and go
30 before 30
I wanted so bad to love you! I didn’t love you, I wanted to love you! I fell in love with the idea of you, it was nothing you did. You just didn’t make my heart skip a beat. I didn’t even see you the day we met because you were just that insignificant.
It’s nothing you did or didn’t do, it’s time for me to be honest with myself. I think you are awesome, that’s true but you just not the one my heart longs for. I still like your smile, I like your sexy legs and I think you are the hottest but just not for me. Be awesome and stay cool, we just shouldn’t have happened that’s all.
Connections should be easy, not forced, just spontaneous. I think we all deserve that and I am letting you go so you find that connection. You deserve it, I deserve it too. Go forth and find your special connection.
I wrote this a while back but never sent it. I delayed the inevitable and ended up wasting both our times. That was also a lesson. Honesty may be brutal but it’s necessary.
Teach me your ways
Let me love you
I want to graduate in loving you
It will be my full time thesis
Finding new ways to love you as we both evolve
Teach me to love you
I want to know which feathers makes your soul smile
So I can get them and always tickle your soul
I am learning to love myself fiercely
Some days are perfect
Some days like today are ok
And that’s completely well with my soul
I have hated you for so long
I remember the day I realized you weren’t conventionally beautiful
Barefoot swimming in the ocean with others,
Your length, shape and color was different
Something to be laughed at
Something to be hidden
Isn’t it funny how much ground we have covered
Isn’t it ironic how you have always been there for me
Even when I hated you, you loved me
Always there for me
You have grown in me
Acceptance became love
So dear feet,
I love you
That’s why I love you,
You are just mine!!
In a place
Of no otherness
In the sweet sounds of the doves
In the whisper of the wind
In the breaking of the leaves
The vast sky
Doubt is here
Faith is here
God is here
All is well
Shall be well
After I had forgiven myself,
I found God..
She was here all along,
She never left.
I just had to open my heart,
And I met her!