He tells me;
“I love you so much, I don’t see any reason why we shouldn’t get married!”
Forget the romance,
This ain’t no Romeo and Juliet,
This is in a busy street on our walk to school!
It should be noted,
I am 19
Just discovered the fun midnight snacks,
And sometimes midday 😜
I tell him,
“Why do you want to imprison me?
We are still young
I am still finding myself”
I think that’s when he decided to cheat,
I didn’t decide to cheat then,
But soon after that
I did cheat
Am I sorry?
Considering I was using his phone,
To text Valentine’s messages to my lover while he is filing my toenails
I am sorry
P.S: this is not bragging about cheating or being a bad ass but I think in my healing journey, I am giving myself permission to see other things I did to others. I honestly had no business being with him, but I wanted validation and acceptance and love; but had no idea what that love was. And now, I know better. And I know that was horrible, nobody deserves that kind of treatment. If I don’t want to be there, I don’t even enter anymore!