I am real lover; when I love I sink my teeth, flesh and soul at the subject of my love. I am a real sucker for love and being loved in return. In the not so distant past I would chase and chase the poor soul I was in love with, in an attempt to show them I indeed worth it. That’s was the past though.
I am on a people cleanse
I am letting go of the friendships that don’t inspire me anymore
I am letting go of the friendships that leave me feeling drained
I am letting go of the takers just because it’s given
I am walking away from forced and deceitful friends
I am letting go of the soul ties that don’t serve me
I am letting go of the soulmates that don’t give me space to breath
I am letting go of the guitarists that play on my mind strings to get what they want
I am setting free the wounded lovers who won’t admit they are wounded and get help
I am letting go of the lovers who won’t rise to the podium and meet my soul
I am letting go of the lovers that want me change
I am letting go of the lovers that have been forcing me to audition for their affections
I am letting go of the broken lovers
I am letting go of the past lovers that live in and plan in the past
I am on a cleanse
I am starving my body the comforts of the familiar
I am starving my mind of the drama it so enjoys
I am serving my soul love
I am feeding my soul authenticity
I am feeding my soul me!
Reflections: perhaps the most painful and truest thing I’ve written in a while. This year has forced me to evaluate my self awareness. Some moments not so nice and very painful but I am the better for it. It taught me to stand for what I believe in and to listen to my emotions. I can’t say I always listen but I’ve come to realize; you can run and hide all you want but you will never outrun yourself!
Friendships died and lovers were lost in the process but to meet my other soulmates; it was necessary